Things that go on in my life that cannot be catagorized somewhere else, sort of a catch-all
Every once in a while, I like to Google my name to see where I am in the rankings. Slowly but surely, I’m moving up! All searches were conducted using the string “Andrew Ferguson” (but not in quotes). The list of search engines I used comes from The Seattle Public Library
Google likes to fluctuate quite a bit, I’m not quite sure why. But I think I’m making pretty good penetration.
I think have a good analogy of how I feel, which is a good thing and a step in the right direction. Here goes:
Imagine that for your entire life, you’ve known what the color orange is. Then one day, someone says, “Actually, this is the color orange.” And as this person says that, he holds up a bluish looking color swatch. You ask around and indeed, what you thought was orange is really this blue looking color. Now imagine that orange was/is your favorite color.
That’s how I feel…i think.
Jeff says he gay, but that’s not what I’ve known for all my life. Here is one of my best friends contradicting something I’ve thought was true all my life.
Update: Cleartext’d
So after talking with Hanway last night until about 3 in the morning (my time), I chatted with Peter. Thus far, only a handful of people know and I surmise that it will be like this for some time. Peter was also the one responsible for “dragging Jeff out.” I don’t know how Peter figured it out, but somehow he did. Peter has also been present when Jeff told a majority of the people he has told, at least within the confines of mutual friends. Peter and I talked about other peoples reactions and who would freak out the most. Quinn and Annie win there.
I don’t think I’m over the initial shock. Although, I have started to think of humors things to do with Jeff (not to him). That seems to be a good sign.
I’m also debating on the whole timing thing. At least the bad timing on my part, being finals week and all. Although, I suppose it was two months on the making, with asking Peter and Jeff and Liz what the Hell was going on. I suppose I have no one but myself to blame.
This does bring up an interesting line of thought though. Jeff and Liz haven’t been talking since last summer. The past few months I’ve been getting more and more information leading up to statement: Jeff lied to Liz. Jeff obviously took it a different direction.
Sorry if these sentences seem random. I’m pretty much just typing out what’s in my head right now…mostly in an effort to get it out so I don’t have to mull over it.
Update: Cleartext’d
Over the next few days, and maybe even a week or so, I will be blogging about event with the title “Didn’t See That One Coming.” These blogs will be encrypted and may never be decrypted. I have been given information which is rather interesting, however it’s not my prerogative to talk about. All I can say is that the right people know what needs to be known at this time. If you have any questions or comments, feel free to leave them on this blog. I will not be divulging anything else at this time.
Ha! JHan just unblocked me from his AIM list. I’ve probably been blocked since freshman year of high school.
Note: Posted with Jeff’s permission.
There really is no point in beating around the bush on this one, so I’m just going to say it. Jeff Hanway just told me he was gay. There. I said it.
Jeff is, has been, and always will be an awesome friend. I’ve never been in a situation like this before, so for the most part, I’m rather stunned. I can honestly say I had no reason, what so ever. I think the oddest thing is there are people I know who are homosexual and there are people I know who have delt with someone they know being homosexual (usually a family member). They’ve blogged about it, I’ve read it, and that’s that. But now to be on the other side. It’s very surreal.
Having said that. Jeff is an awesome guy. We went to high school together, are in the same Bible Study, and have shared many a laughs and what not. For all intensive purposes, he is my brother and one of the few people I will trust with my life.
JHan has known he was officially gay since freshman year of HS, or there abouts. He even had a few boyfriends, which no one knew about (thus now earning Fergs "Super Sneaky Award").
I like to think that I notice quite a bit. In retrospect, I suppose there might have been a few tip-offs. But nothing conclusive.
Perhaps the most ironic thing about this whole bit is that theBS discused homosexuality on many occations.
I’m really not sure where I’m trying to go with this. I have a lot flowing through my head right now and I really just want to get it out.
Futher comments will be posted as encrypted logs.
Update: Cleartext’d
Soooo good.
Packed pretty much all day, once again reaffirming the fact that I have too much stuff. Also made another trip up to Broomfield to drop off another load. I think one more load should do it. Family Guy once again was excellent, so was American Dad. My Sunday night’s are now gone.
Went and picked up Peter’s Palm from the DHL center. Long story short, DHL couldn’t locate the address and instead of waiting for Monday, I opted to pick it up on Saturday. And yes, it was I that opted to pick up Peter’s Palm. Anyways. Took up a load to Kit’s house. Dad and Brian were there for one of Brian’s meetings. Built a little compost fence for Melissa and started working on the Weber’s computer. Something really got messed up and it will probably need to be reformated. I have soo much crap.
There was a belly flop contest. I entered. It hurt…a little.
